How's everyone's weekend going? It's hot here, but what's new with that. lol


It's also been kind of a daze, it just being the two of us now. The dogs keep searching for her, and the two oldest keep looking at us trying to figure out which one is going to leave them next. Obviously neither of us intend to go anywhere, well except for the store and stuff, but you know what I mean. The sadness is still there, but I think anger is beginning to take over. She's still my sister, and I'll always love her, but right now I want to kick her in the head. lol
Yesterday evening was the first time I outright laughed. I was planning to watch the British comedies on UNC-TV, but I found The Princess and the Frog on  ABC Family and watched it. I'd like to get that one; it's not often you hear 'y'all' so much in a cartoon.

I think we might be getting help with our plumbing this week; we have to wait for Aunt Cherrl to get back to us on Facebook, so we'll see.
Also, I started playing Marvel: Avengers Alliance and Bubble Witch Saga. I am stuck on level 35 and both Mama and Karlei have already passed me!

Wednesday was fine; I went to Walmart, picked up some things we forgot for Memorial Day and The Woman in Black. I know things haven't been perfect lately, but I thought it was a good day. Yesterday began like Wednesday, except for when I turned my computer on to read my email, I heard Mama break down.

My sister told her she was leaving to go move in with HIM. If you're late to the party, I refer to HIM as such because I'll be damned if the law requires that I address that man as my father. She said that she got an email from him the previous night; apparently his cousin Jodi is coming down to visit her nephew, and he took the opportunity to tag along. They were supposed to pick her up around 8 this morning, but instead they came and got her around 10 last night. We found this out about 2:30 yesterday, and once I managed to quit screaming, it hit me like a ton of bricks. She waited until the last minute to tell us.

The worst was still yet to come when he called and told her to bring her stuff outside, so they could pick her up by the mailbox. That fucktard didn't have balls enough to come in the driveway. Mama was waiting outside when the truck pulled up, and she told them to pull in, so that she wouldn't be picked up like someone's garbage. He was hateful as always, just more red and swollen and looking for a fight. Then that goddamned cousin of his took her cell phone out and started taking pictures of my mom! AND, the cow threatened to call 911 if some shit started. HOLD THE FUCKING PHONE. SHE was the one that pulled up outside of OUR HOUSE. SHE would be considered the "guest" on a technicality, and SHE has the gall to call the law on US?! I swear to god if I could have gotten out of the house last night that bitch wouldn't have had the chance to dial the 9 before I beat her and my father senseless. And it wasn't just him, whoever was in the truck was talking shit about Mama, in front of my sister! And she still went with them! When Father's Day rolls around this year, I'm not holding anything back.

Mama's trying to pull herself together. We were both exhausted from crying last night and slept on the couch because I didn't want to be or leave her alone. I'm scared to death I'm never going to see her again now. Mama, Aunt Cherrl, Uncle Mark, and Nina all think that they won't see her again. I don't know how we're going to handle everything now. I may be avoiding the internet for a while until summer semester starts, so if I don't comment on something, you know why.


Anyways, I hope everyone on my friend's list has a great Memorial Day weekend! ♥

The funeral for my cousin is today at 2. My grandmother just came to get my mom; I'm staying home to babysit the dogs. I can't go; being at Aunt Gin's was bad all those years ago, and I don't expect that I would hold up any better at this one.

Chance of nasty weather again this afternoon. Also, and this is funny, the kitchen computer's monitor burnt up. We figured the harddrive or the motherboard would be the first to go, it being a Frankenstein computer that he put together.

I think I'll go play Mario Kart Wii for a while. Probably race under Worldwide instead of Regional. If you see a Daisy whiz past you with the name 'Cyclone', that's me!

Done with my spring semester! *flails*
I still have to wait for the final grades from my instructors to come in, but I am basically done. Now I can go stack the textbooks that I know the bookstore won't buy back with the others. lol

I'm kinda lost now, I don't have anything that I have to do with a pressing deadline until the beginning of next month. If my friend would ever get moved I'd have someone to go to the movies with. For now though I think I'm just going to do some cleaning around my desk and on the computer; it's a rainy day and I don't feel like doing much else.

I think it's one of the unwritten rules of fandom on the internet: If it exists, slash can be made from it. Or was that porn the rule was talking about? Either way, I imagine it holds true.

What's funny is that when I first discovered slash pairings, I didn't know that's what they were called. Let's see, the first fandom that I discovered slash in had to be Gundam Wing. I remember seeing a lot of 1x2 and 3x4 and 2x5s labeled on a lot of Gundam sites, y'know back when Geocities and Tripod were the shiznitz?
To be truly honest, slash pairings don't bother me in the slightest. I'll admit it gets old after a while, if that's not what you're looking for on the internet, but you keep to the code of "don't like, don't read" unless you're a total butt and wish to waste energy flaming the creators. I don't do that. I won't do that. If I leave a comment/review on something, it's because I had something meaningful to say because I liked it that much.

However, there are times that I think people just pair fandom characters together because of "that look" that only they can see, which should be so obvious to everyone else in the world. Maybe it's because of an argument they had ("ooooh, sexual tension!"), the possibilities are endless. That irks me just a bit. Especially in fanfiction. If you're going to write a slash pairing that is only visible to you, add more meat to your plate of headcanon other than one look meas they're angsting for each other.
Make us see what you see, and then we can understand the position you've taken better.

Well, if this weekend was bad, it just keeps getting worse the more I learn. I'm not sure what is really accurate because my family has been known to over-dramatize things. They can't help it, it's in their nature. We're staying out of the way, and it's not because we don't care (which would be stupid) but because they need time to grieve. There will be time to offer condolences and hugs and be surrounded by family and friends, but just let them breath for Christ's sake.

I've been trying to keep myself distracted and busy, but it's not working all that well. I've got a Stats final tomorrow I've been trying to study for.My last practice I got a 90%, so that's good. Unfortunately the site's servers are experiencing issues, so two practices may be all I get.

I really need to jump back into that 100 Things challenge. I haven't forgotten it, I've just been studying for my bio final. I think that's what I'll do, besides muck around on Tumblr while I wait. Or work on my Nanowrimo story, which is funny, because the more I mull over what I've written, the more I'm changing. Good thing I'm going to wait and upload it once I have it finished.

So for my first entry into the 100 Things Challenge, I thought I'd start with what got me into fandom in the first place: Sailor Moon.

When I first watched Sailor Moon, I was in the 6th grade. I had no idea what anime was then, and one day I was doodling from memory before my math class when I met the person that introduced me. Her name was Amanda, and she was a huge Sailor Moon fan and was delighted to finally have someone to talk with about the show. Cause in North Carolina, the odds of finding another friend in the fandom at the time was severely slim. She showed me some of her Pocket Mixx graphic novels, and let me read over them during our breaks. When she got her artbooks in, she practically bounced about as we marveled at the artwork.

Like me, she drew; and at the time she was able to emulate Naoko Takeuchi's style flawlessly, much better than my attempts because I was terrible at figure drawing then. It was also about that time that I really started to use the internet, and my dorky self was amazed by the Geocities and Tripod-styled websites that others had put together with image galleries that would quickly exceed their bandwidth limits and go down. Of course I didn't know anything about this stuff then, I was just fascinated with the idea that others around the world were into the same show that I had just discovered. It was also through Amanda that I first learned about fanfiction; she gave me a copy of a Sailor Moon story that she was writing, and I still have it somewhere in my room. Sadly, after the 8th grade we lost contact with each other because she moved away. So while I don't know where she is now I bet she's still got those now-extinct Pocket Mixx books.

To this day I still have the Sailor Moon issues I got at the local comic book stores, though they're wrinkled and worn in places. I have a shelf filled with graphic novels, dvds, and other odd little trinkets over my desk. I know for a fact that I spent more money on them than I should have, and I've been through so many series that I've lost count exactly. I'm always going to enjoy Sailor Moon, even though now I see it as silly; without it I probably wouldn't have delved into so many different fandoms over the years.

Things would have been incredibly boring, then. And suck.

My birthday was pretty good yesterday. Went to the grocery store and came back with a box of Twinkies and those Swirly cupcakes. I'm justifying getting them both because it was a buy one-get one free deal. :D Also played some Mario Kart online, but it got frustrating when the connection kept dropping me from races.
Oh yeah, and there were about 4 or 5 bulls out in our front yard in the morning.
They belong to a guy down the road from our house, and I guess they got out somehow. I woke up to the dogs barking, and looking out my window I see my mom standing on the porch waving her arms telling the bulls to get away from her flowers and to go on home. Down the road at my uncles house, my cousin Stacy shouted "Mike!" "What?" he shouted back. "There's cows in Ann's front yard!" He made it up to their mailbox to see my mom running them back down the road. So we had a good laugh over that when he came by earlier this afternoon.

I did in fact get a card from Him (friday I think); it was a pair of red-white stripped socks with a Red M&M on each. Before we got the mail that day I was working on my entry for the Deviantart Dark Shadows contest, and after opening it I was shaking from rage so bad that I had to quit drawing. 

Times like that I wish I could call on the Hulk to go squash him like a bug. LOL

Anyway, I've got to get back to work with school stuff, because I had a swell of panic last night eating cake that screamed "3 weeks till finals!" If it's even 3 weeks. I don't want to figure it up today.
I have my finals set to schedule for the 3rd and the 8th next month - and the Avengers is going to open that weekend. Guess what I'll be doing? STUDYING.

And finding this on Tumblr last night made me laugh, so I had to save it.

You don't realize how much college costs until you enroll, huh? ;D

Apart from earning money to pay for school, I'm also needing work to help make sure the bills stay paid - internet = a must for online schooling! My style is pretty widespread; I can jump from anime-like characters to portraits of actual people to furries or motorcycles. If you have a reference photo (or photos), chances are I can tackle it!

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